Plumbing the Depths of Your Own Life

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In a recent chapter of Lawrence Block’s Telling Lies for Fun and Profit he talked about a phenomenon he calls “burning the raft at both ends.” By which he means, consuming one’s own life experiences in the service of one’s writing. According to Block, you can use up your life. You can run out of experiences. You can write through your life faster than you can live it.

I’m vested in believing he is wrong about this.

I write from my own life. Maybe it’s because I come out of a poetic tradition. Or maybe I was drawn to confessional poetry, in particular, out of a compulsion to use my own life experiences in the service of my writing.

Part of gaining skill in writing has been learning how to do this more skillfully—to take the emotional kernel, the essence of my own experiences, and of the social and psychological realities I know intimately, and allow that essence to sprout circumstances for my characters that are not so easily traceable to my own life. In part, I do this to avoid libel charges, sure. But I also do it—like most writers—to protect the innocent, or at least the loved.

But as I have expounded before, I write as one vehicle toward self-knowledge. Writing without explicit self-examination is impossible for me.

I happen to believe that human beings are infinitely complex. That the material in any one human life is inexhaustible and ever-deepening. I was listening to a podcast by the New York Public Library yesterday. In it the novelist Karl Ove Knausgaard seeks to dispel the rumors that people with good childhoods can’t be writers. That well-adjusted, ordinary folk have nothing to write about. He describes himself as such a person who was lucky enough—and as a writer unlucky enough—to have supportive, well-adjusted parents and no major traumas. And he talks about learning, through the works of such writers as Flannery O’Connor, that every human life is engaging and interesting if you zoom in close enough.

Frankly, I don’t trust writers who claim not to write from their own experience. Maybe they don’t write from their own experience in such an obvious way. Maybe they use persona. Maybe they write science fiction or supernatural horror or murder mystery. Maybe they haven’t  personally experienced taking someone’s life but their hero is a serial killer. I would argue that even that person is writing from their own experience—maybe from their Jungian shadow side—maybe it’s unconscious. But to write that character in a compelling way they must be in touch with the human impulse to violence (whether expressed or unexpressed) in themselves. We each have it, after all.

We each have the capacity for all human emotions and psychological experiences. The entirety of your novel must spring from your own mind, which has been shaped by your experiences. That’s part of the mystery of writing. Somehow all of that stuff is in you. “You contain multitudes,” as Walt Whitman said.

So can you burn the raft entirely before you reach the shore? I would argue that you cannot. You have no choice but to keep living while you are writing. The raft keeps getting built as you are burning it. And as you refine your craft, perhaps you are also refining your attention, and you will see things in your life you never saw before. And they will be revealed to you through the act of writing itself.

What do you think, Agile Writers? Feel free to make a case for the opposite in the comments below!

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2 thoughts on “Plumbing the Depths of Your Own Life

  1. I contend that it is impossible to consume the raft, even we wrote continuously for 24 hours a day. Even if we could create a clone who also wrote 24 hours a day. Or a hundred clones.

    Your question reminded me of an exercise from a course I took in Creative Thinking. The instructor gave us, a roomful of engineers, one minute to form a list of all the things we could make from a paper clip. Sixty seconds later he asked us how many items were on our lists. The answers ranged from three and four to about a dozen.

    Then he gave us another minute to form a list of all the things we could NOT make from a paper clip. Another sixty seconds later he took another poll. This time, he solicited examples. Some of us suggested highly creative, outlandish ideas such as atom bombs and life forms.

    But then he challenged us to come up with ways for executing those outlandish ideas. Surprisingly, we found ways to execute them all, atom bombs and life forms included. We learned that, if we were willing to be creative enough, we could overcome any of the limitations we had earlier thought absolute.

    The final question he posed was this: “What really was the first list testing?” The answer, of course, was that it was merely a test of writing speed. There is no limit to the number of things we could make from a paper clip.

    Or the number of stories we could write about our lives.

  2. I think that some writers can consume the “raft” such as Pat Conroy, who recently passed. His childhood was filled with such horror, as evidenced in his books, that he had to write as a form of catharsis, which allowed him to heal the break in his family. Selflessly, i regretted his limits, as I so enjoyed his mastery of the language and his ability to construct beautiful prose. I can’t think of other writers with such limitations, but i believe they do exist and for the most part are very rare. I tend to think of writers like Steven King, Robert Ludlum, James Patterson and many others that are examples of writers that write from pure imagination and thus will never “burn the raft”, but their prose in my opinion can never measure up to Mr. Conroy.

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